wake up call

as i was huffing and puffing in my car driving back home from the gym. i pull up to my parking spot in the citayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy and i realized something.

life is never about being ready.

why do i say this?

i was in champaign urbana for 5 years. and no i was not one of those fools that couldnt graduate on time. i graduated in 4 years then another year of awesome accounting!

anyways, during my 5 years in champaign, i was very blessed to have attended cfc. cfc is my spiritual home.

anyways when i left champaign, i told myself i was ready to take on the world. i was ready to excel at my job. i was ready to find the perfect girlfirend. i was ready to be an awesome youth group leader. i was ready to be a kingdom worker for the kingdom of god.

I WAS READY.

and then bam. 2008 was the most breaking year of my life.

i have been realizing lately that my mentality of leaving champaign was not right. i never shouldve declared myself as "ready." 

as i look back, declaring myself "ready" was a sign of arrogance.  it was a sign telling god that i can do everything on my own and im going to rock.

life is never about being "ready." 

life is a continual process of growing. learning. when i said i was ready, i thought i was able ot take on the world. however i was wrong. the world consumed me and chewed me up and spit me back out.

i dont want to be ready for 2009. but i want to be a man of humilty. i dont want 2008 to be mine. i want 2009 for christ.

humility is holiness. i want to be holy.

in need of a savior and his name is not barack obama

so i just got home from the barack obama rally. i want to first say congrats to obama and mccain. even though you two will never read this, its ok, i respect both of you (sort of). it was great to be a part of history as barack has done something noone has ever done. i give mad props to him. i see why people are excited that he is president. it gives people hope that anything and i mean anything is possible. who knows, maybe one of these days some fob will be running this piece.

anyways, so being at the rally made me think about many things. keep in mind, i could've given a rats ass about politics when i was fun, outgoing and wrote stupid dumb fun xanga entries, but now that i'm a bit older, i cant believe im saying this but im into politics. well anyways here are some thoughts.

1. politics should bring people together.

- ok it does not bring people together.  the democrats and the republicans really hate each other.  and honestly i dont even think there is a legit reason for so much dislike towards the other party. for example everytime they showed mccains face on the jumbo trans people would boo, swear, stick their middle finger at them etc.  and i'm sure at the republican party, they were doing the same thing when obama's face showed up.  now this is where i was dumbfounded.  how can anyone be in the position to hate the future leader of this country. i mean come on, how old are we? as mccain was giving his farewell speech acknowleding his defeat, the crowd at the rally were still booing this guy. i mean come on. how ignorant are we? what i want to know is why there is animosity between the two parties. we need more of a mediating role between the two parties. government should not be tearing this country apart.  i understand the views and nature of each party, but i do not understand how there can be so much hate and animosity towards one another.  we are all ONE. we all live in this country there we are one. where is the love?

2. Obama is Jesus.

- ok i'm exaggerating here. but seriously, people LOVE obama  i really believe that people think he is going to change this country and change this world.  and i think thats great to show your support and faith into your future president.  but this is where i have to ask, what are people really worshiping? people just seem to lose sight in god and really believe that obama can change this country. thats the problem. they dont see god. they see a man and view him as god. they see him as a person that will change this world.  however i really believe that god is the only one that can change this world and he uses his people to change this world.  obama needs prayers. and lets hope hes not the anti christ. i can go on forever about this topic but i wont because i do not want to cause any controversy or any of that sort nort do i want secret service banging on my door the next day and torturing me b/c i think obama is the anti christ. but if you were at the rally and you saw how people on the streets of all different races were just filled with joy b/c this man won, you might ask that question as well. i've never seen people react to a presidential win like i did today.

3. people are idiots

- i dont want to sound mean when i say this but i'm pretty sure half of the people that voted for obama have no idea what his policies are about, what his history is about, what he believes in, etc. i think all they care about is that he can speak (helluva speaker), hes charamastic (great personality), and he plays ball. i mean come on, if i was an idiot i vote for him too because he plays ball. anyways, the voting system is lopsided b/c people dont care about the stuff that matters. people llike myself, we are superficial. we love beautiful people. in my case, i like pretty girls. but yes, i strongly believe that a lot of people voted for obama not because he has aweomse policies planned like health care but hes black, smooth, and ballin. as people we need to take our politics seriously.

4. all nations

- it was refreshing to see people of all races, young and old, bi and straight come together to celebrate obamas victory.  one reason why i absolutely love chicago is the diversity. yes i'm homophobic but i dont mind homos. i don't mind queers. i don't mind emo people. etc. i think the uniqueness of people brings the best of this world.  i really believe everyone is beautiful in their own way. and seeing people unite was such a blessing in disguise. there is so much power when there is love and unity with one another. however that feeling has been gone now for majority of the people and now i'm back to making fun of chinese guys and girls.

on that note, i predict dave chapelle or 2 pac will become the next president.

on a serious note, please pray for this nation and please pray for obama.

random thoughts

a couple of things before i forget.

on my way home after work i reflected and prayed.

here's what i came up with.

1. people are expecting one man to change this world with the upcoming election.  however, there can only be one savior that can change the world. people are putting obama on a high pedastool.  they are expecting him to change this country.  however are people forgetting that we have a savior in jesus christ? and that he can change this world?

2. like a thief in the night....BAM.  realized i need to have more of a sense of urgency and that i need to start living for the kingdom.  if jesus comes back TONIGHT, what am i going to tell god on judgement day? like a thief in the night......

3.  f. i had one more but i forgot. sonuva.

deep friendships?

How does one get "deep" in a friendship?  I have a lot of my friends but I must admit, one of my weaknesses is that it's hard for me to get deep with a friend.  Don't get me wrong, I'm loyal but I just don't know how one can always be "deep" with someone.  Is this the wrong mentalitity? I know people who always spill their guts to each other and cry on their shoulder, etc.  I was just talking to one of my good girlfriends and she just told me I'm really loyal but I need to work on being a little bit more deep.  What does that mean. How do you accomplish this? Do you "Love-Me's," or high maintenance people know how to accomplish this? hahahaha.

Bulls game tonight. Derrick Rose era baby!!!!

knee length shorts

for some reason, i'm a sucker for girls that wear knee length shorts.